helpless

The part that hurts the most, is when you know about it, but are powerless to do anything about it:(

I hope you make the right choices. I hope you put your future ahead, take a long good look at it and see if what you're doing makes any sense. Try to imagine what you do today, having the power to destroy the future that you have. For just one moment of reckless pleasure.

Please, do this for yourself.

crazy

I guess, you've not known love, until it makes you do something...
crazy!

14 days

The seconds turn to minutes,
The minutes turn to hours,
The hours turn to days,
The days turn to weeks,

And life begins...

Morse Code

*blink blink*
*bliiink bliiink,blink blink,blink blink blink, blink blink blink*
*bliiink blink bliiink bliiink,bliiink bliiink bliiink,blink blink bliiink*

*doa*

To the God who makes the cogs in the fabric of humanity turn its course, and the wheels of time, rotate around the puny humans that walk the earth...

I need a firmer ground than this. I need a faith that knows no defeat. I need to know, if chance and time collide.....

So different, yet similar. We are, after all, humans.

*crushed*

To see your dreams,
The ones you've spent so much time building,
All crumbling to the ground....

my last 24

I just turned 25, about 2 hours ago. I don't feel any different. It's the same feeling you get when you're aboard an airplane crossing different world time zones. You pass from one time zone to another, you don't feel any different. But all of a sudden, the country you're over is maybe 2 hours behind time from the country you were previously from. You don't feel the change, but it is there.

25 years, or to be more dramatic, a quarter of a century. It's a milestone. I made it this far. And somehow, I am in no celebration mood, just yet. 2 hours prior to my birthday, I was in reminiscing/reflective mode. The question that kept lingering in my thoughts : What have I done with my life?

I've always viewed 25 as a far-off age, something that will not happen to me so soon. But time flies faster than a bullet. At least, you can stop a bullet. But who can stop time? Other than Hiro Nakamura. Now, I find 25 staring me in the face, and asking, what have I to offer?

I know what people say: 25 is only a number. It's just a phase, so what. You'll get over it.
It will definitely pass. No biggie about it. But it's just a personal thing, my personal thing. I viewed 25 as the age, I would be ready. The age where I would be prepared in all facets of life. I am now aware how naive I was. Change doesn't happen in a blink. I can't be perfect just cause the last digit on my age went up by 1. I realize, I am slightly better than I was a year ago, but nevertheless, still unprepared in many ways.

This is a wee bit emo, but before I can find a reason to celebrate, I need to know where I am now, compared to where I was a year ago. I need to find my bearings and see if it matches who I want to be. I need to realign myself to the goals I have. I need, to know that I've grown.

So, what have I done with my life? I'll tell you in the next post:)

An Island Affair

I think I should make this Island Get-away a yearly affair. This was so good! I couldn't ask for more, except maybe to see huge-ass turtles. But on the brighter side, I managed to see black-tip sharks and leopard sharks.

I so needed this, to get away from work and civilization and plug myself back to nature. It's really beautiful. After looking at the vastness of the oceans and the magnitude of the heavens, how can I not acknowledge that a greater Being has carefully crafted the universe's contents.

The moment I stepped foot on the Island, I dumped my bags and took a dip right after. This is my first Island trip, and snorkeling was just awesome. I couldn't get enough of it. If only I had a digital under-water camera.

After hours of snorkeling, I found gazing at the stars by the sea, the best way to conclude the day. The heavens are just so huge. I couldn't count all the visible stars.

It's so good to just get away from work, the computer, routine, even my handphone. I just chucked it in the room the whole day.

The most amusing thing on this trip was that the Air Asia stewardess gave me her number:p


This was something we came across while walking to the jetty. God is watching, so behave!






One glance, and I knew this is a tiny piece of paradise on earth.


Whoever invented these chairs is a genius! If u lean forward, it becomes a beach chair. If you lean backwards, it becomes something like a hammock, in suspended animation. These were my companion on the long star-gazing nights.


Wanted to see huge turtles, but this was all that I got to see of turtles. In a matter of time, the owner is gonna release them into the sea.


This is the Finnish girl who is currently touring Malaysia. She was on the same boat as us. She taught me the Finnish word for Jackass: "Kusibah" (or something that sounds like that. emphsasis on the -BAH)


Kusibahs! 2 of them! Enough said.


The nice people who happened to be on the same boat with me.
From Left to Right: Jandy, Beng, The Tutor, Ah Moi, Kusibah, Dr. Siau, Ah Mei, and Ms Cute.


I'm thinking of another Island Get-away next year. Who's interested?

More pics coming up, once I get the compiled photos.

Sun Catcher

And till the Day comes, I'll still catch you your daily dose of sunrise and sunsets.

It's all worth it!

I still thank God, I'm Malaysian!

Please make an appointment

In 11 hours from now, I'll be boarding an east-bound flight to the 'Land Below the Wind'. I've never been there before, and the excitement is keeping me up! I've been wanting to make a trip there, but fate has eluded me. But somehow,(in the words of the Alchemist)the universe has conspired together to help me achieve my dream. And in a few hours time, I will have visited all the states in Malaysia, except Perlis. One more stop to go. Then to Asia! The reason for this trip to Kota Kinabalu is to attend the Mead Johnson Symposium. Looks like this new job is going to take me places, literally.

On Sunday, I will touch down in KLIA at 6pm, and I have an hour to get over to LCCT, where another east-coast-bound flight will bring me to my much-awaited vacation. Redang, here I come! Well, not actually Redang. More of Lang Tengah. Ever since I started my working life 2 years ago, I've not had the chance to go for a proper get-away. I'm so looking forward to just lazing on the beach, chilling in the sea, playing with the fishes, and checking the chicks:p

Will be back Wednesday night, and back to work on Thursday. This is, so IT!

Funny thing though, I'm going for a vacation during a weekday, while the rest of the world goes for vacation over a weekend. Hmmmmmm.....

the beauty of grace

seven days
and i'm still standing
i'm still alive
and life is indeed beautiful

and that is the beauty of grace

So contagiously

by Acceptance

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Under Headlights

Our 2nd gig as Under Headlights. We played for One Life Revolution, at Dream Centre, DUMC on the 12th of July 2008. Thanks for your support!

Unbreakable (Fireflight cover)


Morph (own composition)


Keeper (own composition)


That's What You Get (Paramore cover)

Cover me

Lord,

when all else fails,
cover me
when i lose my way,
cover me
when fear stares me in the eye,
cover me
when my sanity loses its grip,
cover me
when my hope is gone,
cover me
when my understanding reaches its limit,
cover me
when my strength wears thin,
cover me
when my vision is blurred with tears,
cover me
when my faith is depleted,
cover me

cover me
cover me
cover me

i pray

advocate

As a nutritional rep, I advocate breast-feeding among the potential mothers to be:) I would like to put a picture up here to put further emphasis, but it might not be too suitable for under-aged viewers:p

If you can't breast-feed, that's where I come in:)

*drink your milk*

The company I represent, is the one with the smart-looking lil' guy in a suit, with 4 fingers raised, showing more than 4 times.... if you watch tv, you'll probably catch him on the commercials.

5 days

it's been 5 days, and...
i miss you.

It ends tonight

Today is my LAST day at my present company.

Next week, off to milk land:)

*stretches to the sun*

to buy or not to buy

Mien!!....I'm having GAS now!!
(GAS - Guitar Acquisition Syndrome)
She's beautiful........
Gimme some feedback....
To buy, or not to buy.

The "Sticker-sucker"

I thank God for this device.

Not the white lil' sheep! The white cylindrical thingy, with the blue handle.

It's some sort of roller, with a layers of mighty sticky tape on it. So, once the first layer of tape gets all clogged up with junk, just rip it off and discard it. Beneath, there is another layer of sticky tape. You can repeat this, till the sticky tape runs out. I don't know what its called, but it rocks. For now, I'll call it, the "Sticker-sucker".

What it's useful for is to trap dust, lint and anything in between. Useful for picking up hair and other tiny objects. As long as the surface remains sticky, it can be used! Actually, size isn't the issue. No matter how huge the object is, as long as it sticks, bingo!

My personal favorite, other than collecting the layer of dust and hair on the floor, I use it to trap Ants! Yup! Those pesky little shitz. I don't know where they come from, but I see them roaming my table all day long. Sometimes, I find them in my drinking cup, taking a piss in my drink. I used to squash them one by one, with by finger. Those days are gone. With the "Sticker-sucker", it literally 'sucks' the ants to the roller and keep them there till I decide to throw them away.
(please don't report to SPCA....ants aren't cute furry animals, anyway.)

See what it can do!



Don't they look lovely, all randomly scattered in one work of art? Just one roll...and bye bye antsy! *problem gone*

This gives me an idea. After getting sufficient ants to decorate my masterpiece, I might just frame it up:) I just might...maybe on the next blog post:)

But beware.

The "Sticker-sucker" happens to attract rather huge bugs too! For example, this guy.

Interested to be a proud owner of a "sticker-sucker"? I got this gadget at Ikea for RM 4.90. (i should be getting paid for this advert)