Anyways, CNY this year feels alot different from last year. Somehow, I didn't have the New Year spirit, u know, the mood? Well, it's like waking up for another day, getting dressed, shaking hands, greeting the old dudes, and all that. But the moment is fleeting away so quickly. I'm still wondering if I'm excited or not:( The 'Ang-Pow' is no motivation for me. Thinking about red packets, it'll be a few years time before I get married, and when that time comes...NO MORE ANG-POW FOR ME:(
Eventhough I may not have the right mood for the Chinese New Year, I'm still glad I'm home among family and friends. To me, Home is an 'Ideal State'. You remember back in skool, when we used to do all those lab test for bio, kimia and fizik? There is always one experiment done in Ideal State or Condition. Well, Home's like that for me. It's a place where I'm away from my Uni life. Things are alot different. It feels safer. Especially with mum and dad around. Not being a wuss, but of late, it's been alot easier for me to open up to my parents about my struggles and difficulties. Made me thank God that He put me in this family. In 'Ideal State', I'm away from other factors that perimeterize my life. It helps me get things into perspective again.
Really been missing out on my Quiet Time:( and I really miss those moments with God. I really miss it:( Hope to get in gear soon. Can't wait for the 40 days fast and pray that my church is having:)
This trip back to Melaka was with a group of gals from church, who are not pure bred Melakans, but due to certain events, are now Melakans:P The number of Melakans in Acts Church is enough for us to start our own Acts Church here in Melaka. Hehe! After being in Church for so long, I'm finally beginning to make friends with the people there. And it's been an awesome time. Some people might not share the same sentiments as me, but it works for me. I'm beginning to feel the 'familiness' of church already. But it's hard to feel it, and convey the message through our actions. Really thank God that He brought people from this church and placed them in my life in some significant way or another. For all I know now, I'm bounded by my words that I will always stand up for Jill, no matter what! ...Bah! Long story. But her sister said that I'm bound to regret it. We'll see:)
There's this tugging feeling for me to grab life and live to the fullest. There's always that. But somehow, I'm feeling lost. Like, where do I start. Been reading books about colliding with your destiny. About 'getting a Life'. About making the moment count. So much theory, but I need to make it practical. Was thinking about it...Siti Nurhaliza was determined to be a police woman. If not for someone discovering her singing talent, she would be patroling the streets just like any other police women. But that one moment of colliding with her destiny, she's at the peak of stardom. The choices we make in life can somehow determine the path we will take in future. It gives me the shivers thinking that I might have missed something out somewhere and missed it all. But I believe that God is good:) And He gives 2nd chances. Taking the next wave that's coming:D
Talking about how hot it is in Melaka, here's some pics I took in Cyber. Never knew that ants in Cyber dig water so much. They don't just get high on sweet stuff, but leave them a cup of plain water and you'll see the whole family having a picnic:P So weird! And under the spotlight, their butts look like it's glowing:P
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