How far we've come

Tomorrow will be exactly 1 month since I re-opened up my heart and laid it on the table of transparency. I was clumsy and fumbled for words, producing flowers from thin air like a magician, at the wrong time. But,this time, she said 'yes':) (it's not a proposal, but a journey to get there someday)


Our commitment to give our best to make this work.

Of the months of going through life, and working out our differences, we're still worlds apart from our final destination. But when I look back, we've come a long way since the initial 'hi, i'm so and so, nice to meet you', to the, 'i've got a confession to make, i like you', to the, 'i don't know how to do this, but let's trust God and work this out'. I think, we've grown a bit more.

Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for trying. Thank you for bearing with me. Thank you for loving me, with all my faults and inadequacies. Thank you for being you.

Here's to the coming months and years:) Looking forward to every bit of it:)

What if?

What if you were told you had only 3 months to live?
What would you do? What would you say?
What can you leave behind that will last for a long, long time?

I wish I had written this

Reason or Rhyme
by Crimson Epiphany

So grant me the grace, to keep from screaming
Give me a sign, let me know what you’re thinking
I guess that I, should’ve seen this all coming
I guess it’s time, for you to see that my heart’s breaking

There’s no reason or rhyme, to keep me from trying
To look at you out, of the corner of my eye
And I know it’s so wrong, these feelings belong
Somewhere else, But I can’t make them go away

So just let me know, that I’m not alone in this
Or give me a sign, that it’s just a crazy wish
Afraid to offer words, afraid to tell you my mind
Afraid you’d leave, or embrace the me I’m trying to hide

There’s no reason or rhyme, to keep me from trying
To make this happen, though it’s such a crime
I wish I could be so brave, to just walk away
O save me from myself, or let this all be real

Let this all be real
Let this all be real
Let this all be real
I know this all could be real

And so we’re here, how did it come to this?
I wish I knew, the power to resist
To hold you close, to see what might come of this
To save you from the heartbreak, the pain, the bliss

There’s no reason or rhyme to keep me from trying
There’s no reason or rhyme, to keep me from trying
To keep you from me, if I did, I’d be lying
And if you’d choose to stay, if you feel the same way
That I barely dare to feel, then let this all be real

There’s no reason or rhyme, to stop me from trying
To gaze into the world hidden in your eyes
And if you’d be so kind, to give me this time
And if I’m dreaming, just let me believe this is real

Let this all be real
Let this all be real
I know this could all be real

So if I told you, all the things on my mind
Do you think, I’d be surprised by what I find?

living the moment

The feeling is surreal. It is indeed somewhere over the rainbow.
But you won't find a pot of gold on the other side, not usually.

14 days

The seconds turn to minutes,
The minutes turn to hours,
The hours turn to days,
The days turn to weeks,

And life begins...

Morse Code

*blink blink*
*bliiink bliiink,blink blink,blink blink blink, blink blink blink*
*bliiink blink bliiink bliiink,bliiink bliiink bliiink,blink blink bliiink*

the beauty of grace

seven days
and i'm still standing
i'm still alive
and life is indeed beautiful

and that is the beauty of grace

So contagiously

by Acceptance

Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

5 days

it's been 5 days, and...
i miss you.

the apartment

Chick in the basket

yes, I'd like one please:)

For the love of randomness, I hope you don't think I'm retarded.

It's "no air" !! I win!

*winkz*

a novel

If I could, I would write you a horror novel where the main character is a person that has insomnia. He dreams he is sleeping, but he isn't. Wait, he shouldn't be dreaming, because, he can't sleep in the first place. Anyways, maybe he does sleep for short periods, but in those disturbed few minutes, he dreams he is sleeping a long, long time. No...how can that be....

I don't think I can do horror... *sigh*

But if it shockingly horrifies you and give you kicks, I would.

old-fashioned

Not everything is ideal, though we wish it to be.
So, we live and make the best of it.
Though it may not be ideal, it can still be beautiful:)

Sometimes, we just have to do it like how our parents did,
The old-fashioned way.

..you're my dream, please come true..

Memo

Note to self:

Don't get ahead of yourself. Things may not be what it seems now, or maybe it really is what it seems:) Either way, watch out. Be on your guard. Time will uncover answers. But while time is still available, enjoy the moment. Fleeting moments. Smell the roses. It's all good.
But remember, don't get ahead of yourself.

Good Friday, indeed it was.

Good Friday was good.
But, religious duties and spiritual experiences aside, it was really, indeed Gud Friday!

*long drive, teary eyes, chipsmore, raindrops, hot soup, cold weather, chilly wind, toilet break, short queue, standing among 'older' folks, waiting, waiting, cheering, bright lights, no videos please, people getting into the groove, big hair, getting high on singing, unfamiliar songs, a touch of 80s, good performer, weird music, pretty boys, pet boys, walking alongside the rain, starbucks, fog, 20km/h, long drive, curfew, safe *

thank you:)

Pre-Holiday Special

Balancing spoons on your nose can be fun, and so is walking barefoot around the mall.
I'll take a little time to try that out sometime, but I am 'unfortunate' enough not to be able to wear heels, not that I want to:p
I'm getting used to letting you win the game of foosball, but from how you see it, you beat me fair and square, which I'm fine with that too. We'll let bowling determine that.