Wednesday, July 28, 2004

hamster invasion

quote of the day: we s**t like hamsters breed!
today i felt a bit...well, homey...whatever that is. kinda felt i wanted a home-kinda feeling. was thinking about getting myself a pet hamster. maybe one cute one will do. the kind that won't grow too big...wat's it called...hmmm...Dwarf hamster, i think. or maybe i'll get the Panda hamster. they're small, and can't grow too big.  yeah, thinking bout a lil cage with a lil wheel for it to exercise. hmm...some small cage, that doesn't take up too much space. (well, when i get bored of it, i might let it play with the cats roaming about my apartment...ooo fun!)

anyways, while thinking of it, i nearly wanted to impulsively dash out to Dengkil and get one. but i think i'm being rather rash:p will give it some deeper thought for a bit.

what's new? well, i got meself a cutie plant! was walking in Central Plaza on campus and there was some kinda fair going on. one of the stalls was selling cactus and some leafy vegetation. and i saw this hanging-pot with a lil cute plant...and suddenly, i felt i wanted a plant in my room...must be that homey feeling:p after much consideration, i bought it. there were a few types. the one i really wanted was in a pot that was made of a snails shell...a really large snail! but it looked kinda mesy with all the earth sticking out of it..on 2nd thoughts, i wouldn't want my room to be dripping with soil (i'm gonna place the cutie plant in my room). so i got one that was in a cute pot..that had a tiny wooden kinda fence behind it. now, it hangs proudly from my curtain railing, against my window:)

the reason for the quote of the day came over supper. a few of us were eating and i was talking about my plans to get a hamster. the conversation was something like this (i can't exactly remember the sequence, too many things happening alla t once. so sorry if i got it all mixed up):

me : i wanna get a hamster.
cy : u crazy ar!
nwcx : don't la...
mel : why??
mel : y?
*blah! blah! blah!*

me : hamster breed like s**t, man!
mel : what's the connection? how can hamsters breed like shit?
cy : he means we humans have to s**t everyday...so hamster breed as often as  we s**t lah!
mel : oh! *revelation*
*blah! blah! blah*

cy : so it means we can say that we s**t like hamsters breed??

it's all crappy conversation! but what the heck. it was fun...lots of good laugh...that's a good closing for a filled day.

other versions:
-breed like hamsters s**t
-breed like we s**t hamsters


Tuesday, July 27, 2004

the days are like a passing

*after a full meal of 2 nasi lemak and 2 fried eggs, i sit and ponder*

just completed one ASSignment: a 15 page technical report about the physical layer of GSM...whatever that is, yesterday. I kinda procrastinated till 2 days before the due date, then only did i read about my assignment! CRAP! they want me to spit out 15 pages in 2 days? what's THE wrong with them?? or more accurate, what's THE wrong with me?? anyways, i was bz during the weekend, so i kinda had to put the ass on hold till sunday nite...but i fell asleep. so woke up at 2am on a monday morning...and thus began my 15 hour ordeal battling the cyberscapes in search of GSM. not to forget, there was a 4 hour nap in between *:P* so making it 11 hours...and , oh wait...i spent 1 hour on TOny Hawk's skating...make that only 10 hours of sitting in front of my pc clicking and clicking and reading and editing and the works jsut to come up with a 15 page report. Thank GOd! i manage to complete it...now we shall sit back and see what grade i get:)

taking a short break for now...3 more ASS-kicking-ignment to go! one of them is to redesign my faculty's website. those lazy bums...don't wanna spend money, instead exploit us poor students to design something, then take it as theirs:P  the other ass is to design a physical layer protocol for some stuff...whatever that is! and te last ass is to calculate some power stuff so that u can blow ur brains to bits. well...so much for my interesting life.

time is surely flying. about a week ago, i was thinking to self...mien! i got 1 month to the finals...still got time la *lazy man's thinking* . then 7 days passed by like a bullet from a tennis racket...shucks! 3 weeks to finals...and counting.

days are really flying. well...before i go, i tot i would just write soemthing here...some gibberish

we are not who we think we are
a man in the eye's of man
an opportunity in the eye's of God
a student in the eye's of man
a blessing in the eye's of God
a weekling in the eye's of man
a stronghold in the eye's of God
a bush in the eye's of man
a towering tree in the eye's of GOd
a a withering match in the eye's of man
a burning furnace in the eye's of God
a small fry in the eye's of man
an  influential figure in the eye's of God
a failure in the eye's man
a great success story in the eye's of God
a dropout in the eye's of man
a recruiter in the eye's of God
the list goes on...
who's eye's do you wanna see it from:)


Saturday, July 24, 2004


something i found on TEOTI! i think it's really kewl!
Let's face it -- English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.
We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
And why is it that writers write but grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make 'amends' but not one 'amend', that you comb through 'annals' of history but not a single 'annal'? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it? just a "odd & end" ???
If teachers taught, why didn't preacher praught? If you wrote a letter, perhaps you bote your tongue?
Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to anasylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? 'Ship by truck' and send 'cargo by ship'? Have noses that run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?
How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while quite a lot and quite a few are alike? How can the weather be 'hot as hell' one day and 'cold as hell' another?
Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are 'absent' ? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a sung hero or experienced requited love? Have you ever run into someone who was combobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which an alarm clock goes off by going on.
English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn't a 'race' at all). That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it?

Friday, July 23, 2004

healthy diet of LOOPY MEALS!

OK! i've finally given in to the Loopy Culture. If you happen to look on my Bloggers United section, you'd see this LOOPY MEALS!!!! link . I've been telling myself not to give in, but i guess the persuasion is too strong! what the heck:p if you can't beat them, join them...only for good things, oraits! good boy!

well, what's this Loopy Culture all about? just click and find out for yourself. a few of my friends have been talking about it..blah blah this! blah blah that! and i was in a resistive mode. so i just kinda mentally shrugged off all they had to say about this kewl blog. anyways, i did feel left out sometimes when they would start talking about Loopy Meals. usually goes something like this : Did you read the one about *blah blah blah*. and i'd be putting up my ass-smile pretending i'd try to read it but something came up, like the dog ate my mouse.

and others would incessantly send me links of this cool blog asking me to check this or that out...adding that it's darn funny! soem would tell me that Loopy Meals was the highlight of their day! or how sad people they were to read other people's blog for entertainment. i didn't understand what they felt, till i actually read the blog myself. not to promote Loopy Meals too much, but i really have to admit that i enjoy what he writes...if writing compositions could be labelled cool, his writings would be the epitome of it all.

somehow, this blog has the same effect on me as Gilmore Girls, or Friends or whatever sitcom for that matter. my friends would constantly be glued watching all those stuff. i wish i could, but somehow, i find apprehension in watching all these sitcoms. don't ask me why? i'm still finding out myself. Mich has been giving me the nudge for Gilmore Girls...well, something about Gilmore in me don't click...but no doubt, i enjoy the show when i do actually sit down to watch it:p

the same goes with Loopy Meals! I feel it's good stuff in there, but i just can't bring myself to sit down and actually read. but today...i'm convinced! i'm a believer..if you can call it as that! maybe i do have a sad life...having to read other people's blog for inspiration. but what the heck? at least it's better than nothing...maybe Friends:p (no offence intended)

well, so what are u waiting for? go ahead..find that link and click it baby! no regrets! (trying to spread the Loopy Culture) hmm....maybe he stands a chance for a Pulitzer..who knows?

Mr James, if you're reading this, thanks for being an inspiration:)


Wednesday, July 21, 2004

i'm still dreaming

what's happening to me? feels like i've been drugged! so far, it has happened 2wice. one on Sunday, another one was today. all i wanted was a short nap...and before i know it, 3 hours has gone by...in between those time, i felt that i needed to wake up, but somehow, i was too weak to push myself to the brink of reality. sighz. must be a conspiracy. mien! all that time could be used for studying or something more constructive:p

Sitting silent
words won't appear
my thoughts are racing
and there is this fear
what if i'm going too fast
that all seems a haze
and i miss out on
the trail of glory ablaze
if i'm meant for something far greater
would i regret not seeing this later
to behold the God of glory
in this vessel so sorry
which way is my ship heading
would it still be pointing
were it to sink
in the direction of life eternal
that we were meant to live
my thoughts are still spinning
in need of a compass

got a month before the finals, a few days short of a month actually. well, better start studying if i realy wanna prove myself. have a great day guys.

My God is great and big enough...


Sunday, July 18, 2004

Tones of Absolution and Wedding bells!

I went back to Melaka last week for a few reasons. One, it was my friend's wedding. Two, it was MMU Melaka's Battle of the Bands, and my best friend is competing in it.
Well, one my my seniors back in skool, about 5 years my senior, was getting married. She used to be the CF president then, Form 6 and all...and I was jsut Form 1, fresh out of pirmary skool. She was an awesome person! She was literally a walking testimony, her whole life was an avenue where God was always present. I really admire her Faith and Passion. She was a leader in the Youth Fellowship i was attending as well. After she left High Skool, she went to Uni, and i haven't had the time to catch up with her since then, but ocassionally i would see her here or there. That day, as she stood at the altar, with her husband-to-be, i knew that they were a pair made in heaven. Her husband is also a Passionate-Godly man. and i think they really compliment each other. one thing that their pastor said about them that really inspired me was ," As individuals, they were really great men and women of God". i wanna be a great man of God before i step into anything bigger than i can handle. i inspire to be that! She looked really awesome in her wedding dress...to be honest, that's the only dress i've seen her in:p it was sweet. i wish i could have stayed for the dinner that was after the wedding ceremony. but i had to rush off to the 2nd reason why i came back to melaka. It was really nice of her to send me a personal invitation to her wedding though:) guess she still remembers me:)
The Battle of the Bands was really Big! Organised by MMUsic... it was at MITC( Melaka International Trade Center).the theme for the nite was Tones Of Absolution. the let-down was it was Rm 14 ! anyways, the reason that i really went was to support my friends that were competing. Their band was called PG165, the number plate for the bassist's motorbike. 12 competing bands, 3 guest bands, and one darn long nite. basically, majority of the bands sucked! okok! i'm biased!i hate heavy metal...and it sems that nearly all the bands were playing that crap.a big surprise was that there wasn't a single punk badn that nite! the 1st band Vendeta was worth a listen. they were creative, but i felt they woudln't win. after a few hours of torcherous overload of metal crap...PG165 was on. and oh boy! was the live back in me man! the bands prior to PG165 were no where near fit to perfrom...not to forget KRONG, the guest band that sounded like some MEGAdeath wannabees. really! at one point, the lead singer of the band put on a ski mask...wonder y? he looked pretty dumb. later on, he knelt on the floor in front of us, and i had the urge to jsut go up there and give him a kick in his crotch and ask him to shut up. in between Krong and PG165, Tempered Mental was up. They were the 2nd guest band. it was the 1st time i ever saw them perform live. really good music. i was amazed to see how she played the bass so well, with all the funky bass riffs and and sing, like  her hands and her mouth were seperate. i admire her for that.
ok, PG 165 really rocked. we, the fans occupied the front row, and did we go wild! Jason intro-ed with "Apa Khabar Semua?", like some ar-mo-lang. then the band went into their Meant To Live frenzy. it was simply rocking. they finished the song clean. moving to their next self-composition, titled Waves of Glory, Jason into-ed his band memebrs one by one, while giving them space to show off their goodies up their sleeves. they were the only band that each member had a solo. really nice tune. their last song was a song that Jason wrote. well, what made it more happening, they it to Jesus. i was like, " Kewl!". they proclaimed the name of Jesus. Some other band sang about a girl called Anna. But they sang about a God called Jesus. and as they came to a perfect close, i felt they were gonna win something.  I'm really glad for u guys! keep on rocking for Jesus alrite!
the other bands after that was Candlelite Dinner (Justin's version: One night Stand)...Project 8, Awaken and Baind Mary. well...nothing much to say about them. i personally felt that PG165, Awaken and Prject 8 would be the top 3 winners. and yeah...they were!
3rd place: Awaken. 2nd place: PG165 1st place: Project8.
however, PG165 made a clean sweep for Best Vocalist, Best Drummer and Best Composition. U guys are simply awesome!  it was worth the trip all the way down, the RM14 i paid for my ticket and the numerous hours enduring other bands being wannabee-metal screaming bands, just to see PG165 win. coz if they hadn't won, a few of us guys had made a plan to beat the crap out of the PG165 members for making us go through all the crappy bands.
a day to remember!
well, this entry basically is a tribute to Jason and his band. Keep dreaming big dude!
to you other guys as well :Justin the fag, Vijay and XZ!!

Friday, July 16, 2004


It's been some time now, and i have nothing exactly i want to say in here. Well, i have lots of thoughts running through my head, the way the traffic on the LDP highway is when it's 5pm, kinda jammed-up and congested. Did I mention that the thoughts come and go as they please? Can't seem to hold on to a topic for too long. Must be the jam!
I've been experiencing a lot of changes recently. But the problem is, I CAN'T REMEMBER! This is due to the fact the wheels in my mind are focusing too much of the highway scene, lots of cars, but so few people. Wait a minute! Where was I?
Darn! See i told ya:(
Ok! Ok! a new thought just came in. Currently, I'm missing a few people already. It's been kind of a beezee week for me. What with Tests and Assignments (who doesn't)! Well, somehow, miss my chill-out mates. It's just been days, but I feel like it's been weeks, maybe months since I last enjoyed their company. Heard of addiction to friends?( not friends, the sitcom! but friends like the punks you hang out with). Maybe I'm a victim of it:p
I gotta go. Lost my thoughts again. Will be back soon. 

Sunday, July 11, 2004


in need of a passion bigger than life
a desire that the soul cannot contain
a thirsting that only Water can quench
where is the boy that had faith to move mountains?
where is the love that would sacrifice?
is there a need?
is there a want?

God, i need You!


today has been a good day. whole day spent in 1Utama. promised a friend i'd take her there so did. well, the most significant part of the day to me was the 3 hour long lunch conversation we had. we actually sat there and just talked about life and changes and us. it's been qutie a while since we had a lasting conversation. and thinking of it, i cherish that moment dearly. i guess in every human being there is an in-built need to communicate, at a deeper level.

but somehow i felt that as the day began to unwind, i screwed it all up. just me to clinch the final moments with some dumb-ass stunt. sighz! sorry:( if i could unwind the clock and take back what i did...i wish i could! i'm sorry! i'm to blame.

what is this?

michael is a radioactive squirrel!!

michael neo may explode without warning

neo may actually be a spider-human hybrid

wee liem has fragile contents which may break!

weeliem is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.


From Go-Quiz.com

Saturday, July 10, 2004

good feelin'

the past few days has been pretty good...that feel good feeling. guess i have to thank God for bringing cicumstances of chagne into my life. nothing much to say at the moment. just that i hope this feeling lasts longer. reality will soon set in, but i hope the joy continues. thank you!

Friday, July 09, 2004

isn't this just AWESOME!!!

The Star Online > News
Friday July 9, 2004
Passion of Christ gets nod, but censors restrict film to Christians


KUALA LUMPUR: Mel Gibson’s controversial film The Passion of the Christ, which sparked unprecedented debate following its release early this year, has finally arrived on Malaysian shores.

It was learnt that the National Evangelical Christian Fellowship (NECF) would be meeting with the local distributor of the film to work out the details of the screenings.

Its executive secretary Patrick Cheng said tickets would be sold in various member churches of NECF.

“We have yet to work out the details on whether it will be screened just in the Klang Valley or nationwide and on how to distribute the tickets.

“We will only know more when we meet the distributor next week,” he said when contacted yesterday.

The US$25mil (RM95mil) film, which depicts the last 12 hours of the life of Jesus Christ, ignited charges of anti-Semitism and excessive gore when it was released worldwide on Feb 25.

The blockbuster, with dialogue solely in Latin and Aramaic, has grossed over US$370mil (RM1.4bil) at the US box-office to date.

In reply to a question raised by Seputeh MP Teresa Kok in Parliament, the Home Affairs Ministry had said the National Censorship Board had approved the screening of the film in designated cinemas to Christian viewers.

Cheng added that standard publicity such as posters and cinematic trailers were not permitted.

NECF, he said, understood the regulations set by the ministry and was thankful that the authorities had allowed the film to be screened locally.

Sidang Injil Borneo KL pastor Dr Chew Weng Chee said the move was a welcome step contributing to religious tolerance in the country.

“We should applaud the Government for its sensitivity to the Christian community,” he said.

Kok, however, urged the ministry to review the decision to limit the screenings to Christians, adding that it contradicted the policy of promoting racial and religious tolerance among Malaysians.

“Merely watching a movie about a religious figure would not automatically convert a person to another religion.

“Rather it would help to promote deeper understanding of the religion,” she said in a statement yesterday

Thursday, July 08, 2004

voices in my head

*looks at blog and thinks to self*

me : what's happening?
I : i don't really know:(
me : bout time something good happened...all this sadness ain't good for the soul.
I : very true...we have to make something happen, but what?
Myself : i think we need a miracle!
I : so he speaks!!!
me : hmm...when life throws you lemons....
Myself : you make lemonade;)
I : awesome!!
Myself : all this optimism...isn't gonna do much good if God's not in the pic
me : yeah, God if You wanna do something, i guess it's now.
I : somehow, i pray that You use all the faulty and broken for Your glory.
Myself : Amen.

things are gonna change around here....in due time


get away from me
u cause pain
and no joy
if u won't go away
i'll pack my bags and be on my way

the world isn't big enough for the 2 of us


Wednesday, July 07, 2004

that sinking feeling again

i'm here in that place again...a place where i've been avoiding for quite some time...somewhere i told myself not to be...but i'm here again...and it's sad and pathetic...why? feels like i'm climbing out of a pit, only to find myself slipping again...closer to the bottom than i ever was...the hurts come hurtling towards me...painful memories just pops out of thin air...just when i tot i had it over...just when i tot i was strong to get on...just when i tot i was OK...i'm there again...in this place...i dare not close my eyes...for the crashing of reality seems to penetrate my dreams...i need to find rest from this madness.

GOd, help me forget my past. help me forget the hurts. it's jsut too painful, God! i can't do it alone....HELP!

Monday, July 05, 2004

Spiderman.....starlight cinema....tony hawk....NOTHING IN COMMON!

it's a weeks worth of days, and here i am again, among the silent corners of my blog. as i flip thru the virtual pages, i see so many things unsaid.

well, i've been to the Starlight Cinema, finally! SHrek 2 and The Secret Window was on. was stuck in a pathetic jam (one of the main reasons why i utterly dislike KL!). so arrived late, and no place to sit. the crowd was choking...like people everywhere. really funny to see how at home they made themselves;) some had inflatable beds 2 feet thick, some had mats and lying as though they were in their backyard, some close to making out, like they can't get their hands off each other, some had little stools u find on beaches...the list goes on. we'll i had my sleeping bad...

due to being late, i missed 30 mins of Shrek 2, ok...not too bad, then i had to miss bou 30 mins of The Secret Window... so much for movies! i wonder y ppl pay so much to come out here to watch...i mean, no air-cond, it was liek an oven of human beings....so hot and stuffy....then no comfy chairs u get in GSC,

on the bright side, the experience was kewl! i bet they do this overseas all the time, but over here it's once a year if i'm not mistaken. and u get to see stars!!! ...wait!! what stars? i didn't see any starts..all i saw was pink sky, even though it was 11pm! it's jsut the bright KL skyline....that robs the stars of their glory:( sad. but it was an awesoem experience....but, it had to rain...adding spice to the experience:P thank GOd it only rained after the movies ended.

as to date, number of times i watched Spiderman 2: 2 times!

it's a kewl movie...one of thw best i've watched. for those who don't share my sentiments, i wish i could feel sorry for you, but i can't:p a really ablanced movie in most aspects...u dun get tooo much mushy crap or brainless action. just nice!

gotta run....bought meself a 2nd hand Radeon9800SE from me housemate (my GeForece4 MX440 died on me, crap card! )....and with a great graphic card, comes a greater responsibility, the purpose y such powerful graphic cards were made....to play games!!! have TOny Hawk 4 on my hands now....to much for me to handle. It's hot stuff! hope the hot-ness dies sooon. bout time i get back to my books:P

Saturday, July 03, 2004

suicide tendencies

"today...i held a blade at my wrist.it was small, but it could do the job. it seemed so close and real.all it needed was a swift slice,even a kid could do it, and it'll all be over.the rust on it didn't matter...just wait as the life drains out of me.

today...i stood on the busy highway, trying to cross it with some friends. i watched as the cars zoomed past, driving as though the devils were at their tail.it was night, their lamplights making blinding streaks in my eyes. the urge to just lunge myself at the onslaught of traffic suddenly seized me. just a conscious miscalculated step forward towards the path of an unknowing driver, and i'd be off into the clouds, my body limply landing on the roof...if not, in the path of the next oncoming car. so simple. maybe the people crossing with me might get into the 'freak-out' zone, but how long before the after-effects wear off and life becomes beautiful again? *bang* and it will all be over.

BUT NO!!! i won't let them get me that easy. i won't let myself slip by without a fight. i won't go down without another round, and another ,and yet another. i won't let those bas****S and bi****s get in my way to experiencing life. i won't give up so easy. i won't admit defeat when i know there is not a lost cause. i won't be a loser, taking this short-cut out. i just won't! come on babe, bring it on, i won't let u getthe last laugh!

as i crossed the road, i looked at the pink sky...isn't it a beautiful night? "

taken from Wee Liem's Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates; The Black and Brown Ones Reminds You Of Shit!

Friday, July 02, 2004

my little pony

time, circumstances, situations, money, etc,etc....all this have one thing in common: the influnce to change a person!

well, here's something that i feel like writing down...about how i've seen people change...well, i've changed to, but today is not about me;) time to shine the spotlight on someone else:D

we'll there's this one person taht i really look up to...my hero maybe...someone who's pretty level headed and kewl in his way. (if u're reading this, i hoep u dun mind:p)

he used to tell me it's good to be single, liek a wild mustang (horse). free to roam wherever it pleases, do whatever it wants, no one can tame it. mien! did i want to be a wild mustang too!

now, look at him! he's the new version of My Little Pony adult edition! (hey man, just a joke ok, still my hero!). kinda like a horse in the stable, with the saddle on, the shades on the eyes so they can look only straight, not left nor right...and given sugar bits and carrots if it behanves:p

well, there's a time to be a mustang, a time to be a pony. keep up being real man! you da man!