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Friday, February 24, 2006

I need rest

I'm sluggish!
Events happen, people come in and out, but I'm still not moving. Delirious, NOC 4....zipped...and they're all over.
I'm still here.

What I have been doing alot, is sleeping. But not finding rest.

My discovery this week is that sleep is not always equal to rest. I always thought that sleeping was resting. But this past week, I've been sleeping as much as I can...but I wake up still tired, still disturbed, still stressed, still disillusioned.

I need some time to really unwind, and release all the 'toxic' in my mind. I have much to do. It keep playing like a tape inside my head. Sometimes I know what I need to do, but I can't rest till it's done. So, it gets stuck in my head. And when I have time, I sleep, thinking it will make things better. In my dream, I'm running about doing those things. I'm thinking. When I wake, I feel exhausted, still at un-rest. I quickly get ready and rush head-on into another day of work. Trying to complete what I tried in vain to do in my dreams. This vicious cycle continues....

I need rest.

I need to examine my life.

I need to refocus.

I wish I could love You with all my heart again.

I can't pick myself up to even see You.


Well, this is the revised version of my song.

Life is
Sitting in my room
Looking at the map of the failures I’ve been thru
Seems like a theme park
Looking for answers I can’t seem to find
Show me the light
Give me a sign


Life is for living
Life is for giving it all away
When the time comes around
Are you forgiving?
I’m still believing in you today

I’m on my way to finding out that
life’s not meant to
be this way
I see your face smiling down on me
It’s gonna be just my day
Holding on to You
And everything that’s perfectly true
It’s time for me to fall again
Into catch-ful arms I know I will find
What I’m looking for


I hate it that I'm neither here, neither there
But You, you're everywhere
Feels like a dream I can’t wake
out from
when everything seems meaningless.
there You are
Life is for living
Life is for giving it all away
When the time comes around
Are you forgiving?
I’m still believing in you today

I’m on my way to finding out that life’s not meant to be this way
Sometimes I think the future’s so bright
I gotta wear my shades
Holding on to You
And everything that’s perfectly true
It’s time for me to fall again
Into catch-ful arms I know I will find
What I’m looking for

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

ah.. i know what you mean. i feel the same way too..

auseniale said...

hmm, i think i need rest too... ZZZzzzz

EstheR said...

in the stillness of You,
I find rest...

*huggzzz*

Anonymous said...

i love you :)

Anonymous said...

Wee Liem,
I wonder why, I'm experiencing things that you are going through too. I feel tired all the time, busy and exhausted. Life is really busy. But thank God that He is always near and He says, "Be still, and know that I'm God." Again, I'd like to encourage you to look up at God and focus on Him. He will give you rest. hugs