this life-don't just survive...succeed!

whoah! it's tuesday already.time sure flies.last week, i was looking forward to the weekend, coz monday was a holiday, so, we had a long weekend.but before i know it, the weekends over.......and life starts again.well...better get moving.

last weekend, my week was darn crazy, read my previous blog and u'd know why. anyways, i had a CF committee retreat over the weekend at Kajang Country Heights. i was feeling so wasted after the events of the week and to top it up, i was undergoing some emotional stress till i wanted to call it quits for the retreat.was tempted a few times to call the organiser and tell her that i won't be going. however, i went, coz i didn't feel like missing out chillin' with the old and new committees. those guys rock!

the place is pretty peaceful and relaxing....lots of big houses here and there....really huge ones...guess got a few bigshots living there.but we rented a small townhouse...supposedly for 6 ppl.but miraculously, we fitted in about close to 20 ppl.the fellowship was warm and atmosphere cozy. we did a personality test on friday night,and i found out somethings about myself. i seriously wonder how in the world personality test ever came about. coz they're really close to accurate. and though it may not be 100% true, but as much as 80% of it is reliable. and i learnt about the other personalities of the CF committee. it made me realise why they acted the way they did or why did they respond a particular way when they were undergoing something just through the test. and i learnt what were our strength and our weakness and how we could work together combining all of our strength and overcoming our weakness.it was a real eye-opener for me.

on the 2nd day(saturday), we had a few more sessions....and lots of free time, which some of us spent sleeping, others indulging in other 'non-sleeping' activities. since we had no pcs and were disconnected form the cyber world, we had so much fun playing board games...which on 'normal' occasions, would have better been referred to as 'bored' games:P there was Monopoly, Risk, Chess and Rummikub. and u could see how intense those 'gaming' session was. seriously....so much fun....i guess those board games still have the power to keep us captivated. and i admit that i cheated both times i played monopoly:( bad bad me:( i'm sorry! i was trying to show the other players that in real-life,there are lots of con-man, and they should beware.i'm not saying i'm a potential con-man or anything, but we do always have to keep our guard up at all times...not just in the physical world, but in out spiritual life. the devil is out to trick us, and we have to be always grounded in the Word and our Faith.on a less spiritual note, my 'crime' was building house on my property without paying...urm...'borrowing' someone's property without their knowledge.....and building houses on them...and when they landed on them,i charged them a hefty sum without remorse:P cruel me. i 'miscalculated' my steps so i wouldn't end up in jail or somebody else's expansive property....and i 'miscalculated' other people's steps so they would land on my expansive property.....that's about it:( i'm sorry u guys. my conscience is clear now:)

we had lots of kajang sate that nite....like lots and lots... the record holders for the most sate eaten were linkin and me, with 21 sticks a piece. after that, the session that followed was the real 'punch' coz that was where i found out so many truths.the sharing session was meant for us to share what we have learnt the past one year. most of the people that i thought were strong, opened up and said that they were struggling with some areas of their life and how broken they were. it wasn't a sign of weakness, but to me, it had to take guts to admit that you're broken and need help. i for one, was one of those broken people.and after the sharing session, my respect for each person grew in their own way. i realised that i wasn't alone in facing life's struggles.others are facing the same things, and it's such a comfort to know that we can work together, run the race upholding each other, with our focus on Jesus. one lesson to be learnt, is that no matter the circumstances, we should always keep out focus on Jesus. and i'm thankful to God that we have one another to hang on to:)

in the secular world, pioneers and successful companies have a 'gung-ho' committee to lead their ppl. and after the sharing, i asked God, how come He's chosen a handful of broken people to lead. and a thought came to me that God doesn't just see us as who we are now, but rather, He sees us as what we will become in ther future as well. He sees the potential locked inside us that has yet to be released. The Word of God tells us in Psalms 51:17 'a broken spirit and a contrite heart,He will not despise.' another thought struck me, that there is power in brokenness.there is something about being broken that attracts God to us. God is a healer...and He wants to heal.and when we are in need, He wants to come and make us whole again.God calls the weak and makes them strong. great leaders are people who have faced failures and brokenness countless times, but they still carry on and trust God to carry them through. their transparency to their problems and being open about their weakness and failures, allow others to see their struggles and how they overcome them. it's inspiring and motivating when we see their breakthrough at hand:)

thank God that though we are not perfect....we will be someday:)

that's about it for the retreat....feeling rather recharged now...gonna take on what has been place into my responsibility.may God be my strength:)

tonight will be the dedication of the CF Committee. may we lead with passion and transparency. God bless!