Un-perfect !

it's early in the morning....just woke up and had my time with GOd. gonna start studying soon, but dropping by here to let in on the updates. so many things have been happening. A close friend just got admitted to the Hospital last night for apendicitis. prior to this, she had a terrible food poisoning. so she's been down, since last tuesday. her fever's been going up and down. and all this is happening during exam week:( so many 'happening' events taking place....while i'm, typing this, i bet she's out cold under the influence of the general anesthesia....and her 'cute' apendix should be in some liquid-filled bottle for show somewhere. the bright side is, it's just a minor operation that thousands have undergone before. so she'll be part of the community walking around with their 'missing' apendicitis. i wonder why don't they sell '2nd-hand appendix' in the black market?? u see livers, kidneys, hearts, and a whole load of other 'spare parts' up for grabs....but u just don't see the appendix! i wonder why is the appendix there in the first place...if it is only meant to be operated on and removed sooner or later:) God, you're funny! Hang in there Mich! very soon u'll be up and kicking butts again.but in the mean time, get some rest will ya! hehe! treasure your 'moments' in the hospital! it's not that often u just get to lie in bed in an air-conditioned room and people come check on you all the time;)

anyways, on the other side of the coin.....my life is something like......urm...imagine this, u find a long strand of hair, about 15 inches long...and u pull at it till it's taut. ok..perfect! that's how i view my life situation at the moment. i'm living on a 'tension'! so many things are happening, and i might just snap anytime....remember that strand of hair....u tug at it too hard, 'pop' it snaps. and for the past few days, i've just been relying on God to 'keep' me from snapping. it's at this point, where i'm letting God do His work. in a way, i'm amazed. coz i seriously feel that it takes a little bit of shaking and stretching, before 'putus'. but somehow, i'm still here, hanging on. and it has to be God. never have i been in a place where i'm so dependant on God to meet my needs.sometimes i wish God would work faster:) but , He's God and I'm not! and this is really an eye opener for me. to be able to live on the edge, about to fall off, but somehow, u know that God won't allow u to fall over.it's His grace that covers me. i still live with my insecurities and failures, but i'm slowly getting there. so much more to experience..........just have to wait and see.

God, if you're reading this, i wanna say thank you!