life:don't just survive, succeed!

it's a monday today......first day of the week.....the only constraint in mt mind at the moment is the test i'm gonna have tonight. anyways, i've got some things to say about yesterday....Sunday....before i forget!

the night before sunday....i slept at 4 am trying to study....and the next day i was serving in church....and i asked God to forgive me for not sleeping early....coz usually i make it a point to have a good rest on saturday nights, so that i'll be fresh and alert on sundays. somehow, i just couldn't afford the sleep at the moment. i asked God for strength. worship service was great that day:) after worship, i felt a lil' tired and i was thinking to myself....shucks...i might doze off during the sermon...but somehow...i didn't! that's great, coz i felt that God was trying to get my attention. the message was a simple one, titled , "defining ministry". nothing fancy,but deeply profound. during the whole message, i just felt myself break inside....like all of a sudden, and i asked God, where is this coming from. what pastor kenneth said struck me.

a lot of words were said, but the few key points is ministry is a calling. it's something that every Christian is called to do. a lot of times we get the wrong perception that ministry is all about serving full time in church or a mission field, but the greek meaning of ministry, means to be in attendance, to attend to, to aid. i hope i dun get this wrong....but by us going to church on a sunday is also considered a ministry:) we minister to the people around us. ministry is about seeing a need, and then filling it, even if it is a menial task. this really challenged me to not look down upon the small jobs that i do.hehe! we don't need a a big degree or anything of that sort to minister:) pastor kenneth showed us a concept of how a pastor equips his people, and then his people going out and equiping and aiding the others around them. for every frontstage ministry, there has to be a backstage ministry. pastor also warned us about the danger of letting ministry block out the voice of God...it's possible! but before, we can proceed to ministry.....preparation comes first. the preparation sets the groundwork for the ministry we're gonna be involved. at this point i really broke coz.....what pastor said seemed to connect with my life at the moment. sometimes, we're in a place in life where we ask ourselves, "what am i doing here???" i've been there and still am there...and i realise that it's all in the preparation phase. i really don't know what God has in store for me....but i choose to continue to be faithful.....sooner or later....it will all fall into place...and when that happens.....i'll be able to look back upon this time....and know it was all a part of a great plan. Jesus was a carpenter's son till He was 30 years old. all those years of preparation for his 3 years ministry. but, we can see that He accomplished so much more in that short time. this says that the preparation aspect is very crucial.
what ministry is for:1. to build up the body of Christ.(prepare the bride)
2. to glorify Jesus.(please the bridegroom)

at the of the service, i was so broken and in brokenness, God came. it's been always in my heart to serve others....to fill up a need...to be nice...to just help out whenever possible. and i am reminded that whatever i do, eventhough it's big or small, God takes pleasure if i give it my best. as i serve, i may be serving Jesus without actually knowing it:p if u check the past few days blog, u'll see a similar message....i guess God is trying to tell me something:)
God i thank you for speaking to me...for revealing Your word and loving me so much...thank You. use me, whatever i have, whatever i've gone through, for Your glory. i want to serve You, the best that i can. give me a servant's heart. i thank You that You love me for who i am.Amen.

that night, we had our first home cell meeting:D at A1-0-10! though it was only 6 of us....i felt so refreshed! thank you hoyden for taking the initiative and the courage to set this up. it's different form CF or CG..i guess....it's added on experience.maybe CF and CG not enough:p. 6 of us came out of willingness,though we were so busy.it was a small group....more liek homey kind! and it was fun! really felt refreshed and geared up. should do it more often. i hope that more homecells can pop out!

nuts.....been an hour since i got on this page....time does fly....better get to work!
see ya.